Hey
Why is it that you want something for so very long and anticipate it being such an amazing event and then when it actually happens it just isnt how you thought it would be and you end up angry and frustrated at it for no logical reason?
Ive spent since January trying to wangle it to get a friend of mine to switch jobs and come and work with me, he worked for the same organisation - just under a different umbrella but we get on so well and he went for my job and didnt get it, I felt a little bad, it seemed like them right thing to do to campaign for another role to be created, I lobbied for it, wrote the job description, sold the idea to him and all concerned, even managed to arrange our own office - he went for the job, got interviewed and landed it, started the job the other week.
But now we share an office I cant put my finger on why but im just not really that happy about it, the jovial banter that we always enjoyed is now annoying, I find myself snapping at him and struggling not to tear his head off, he doesnt leave me alone in the mornings and I am SO not a morning person. I dont understand why I feel like this. I wonder if I was thinking something might happen between us romantically and now ive realised I just dont like him in that way....so its all a bit pointless, in fact that initial feeling of meeting somebody cool has worn right off, I find so many things about him irritating.
On a different note, last night I was sick all over my bathroom then passed out and banged my head. Feel terrible today, getting too old for this kind of rock and roll behaviour...
Currently reading another CJ Samson novel but finding it pretty hard going compared to Dissolution, this ones called Soverign, it follows Henry VIII's progress to York with his new bride Katherine Howard but it hasnt gripped me at all. Got a queue waiting to read next. Wish I had a holiday coming up on which to indulge, I intend on totally chilling this weekend too.....
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